Hello Everyone,
It’s the first day of the New Year and it’s already off to a
horrible start. I rang in the New Year with my family but I spent the first 20
minutes of 2015 crying my eyes out. The supposed love of my life broke up with
me the day after Christmas, and I haven’t felt right since. I have been trying
to be strong but some days are easier than others. I got a tattoo on the
collarbone to remind myself that everything happens for a reason, and it does
but I’m still hurt and confused as to why he all of a sudden decided he wasn’t
in love with me anymore. It was hard to see my family so happy at midnight, hugging
and kissing when I felt broken, hurt and betrayed. If you had asked me a week
ago to picture that exact moment I would’ve said that at midnight I would be
expecting a call from him and that we would laugh and talk and ring in the New
Year and be happy. I never thought in a million years that my night would be
the exact opposite. And now my family is on their way over to my parents’ house
so we can all have dinner and celebrate the New Year yet again, and I'm not in
a celebratory mood. I have to put on a fake smile and act like everything is
alright as my family laughs and enjoys each other’s company. People keep
telling me the pain will subside and everything will be okay, but I can’t do
anything without thinking of him and how I wish he was here. It’s something I’m
going to have to live with, but everything happens for a reason. Enough of the
sad stuff… I’ve got a couple New Year’s Resolutions that I’d like to share. The
first being that I want to finally lose weight, I’ve been trying for a while
but this year I’m going to be serious about it. And the second is that I’m
going to try and actually have fun and do what I want to do and not what
someone else wants me to do. I’m going to flirt and laugh and be myself no
matter what anyone has to say. I’m 21 years old I should be having fun, acting
my age, and enjoying myself instead of being so serious all the time! So here’s
to the first day of 2015!
Thanks for reading, xoxo Lashleigh
First, it is a great courage to be smiling despite the pain you are feeling within...Yet, sometimes, the best option that is best left for us is to smile - to show that we are still capable of doing it in spite of what makes us feel down.
ReplyDeleteSecond, my friends have similar new year's reso with you..."to lose some weight" They weren't very serious last year' tried to be vegetarian, took less carbs yet ended to be eating always. They're still healthy this year and I love them...
Third, do what will make you happy... it's the best rewards we can give ourselves. Though, remember to share that happiness to with others. Have fun!
Finally, I am trying to update a blogpost about people who are up to the #365DaysChallenge so I shared some of your tweets here >> http://ugmahay.wordpress.com/2015/01/02/here-is-what-the-365days-club-says-about-the-365dayschallenge/
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