Well Hey there readers!
It the last day in January of 2015! This month has brought a lot
of challenges to me. I have been trying to blog everyday sometimes it ends up
being every other day but I’ve gotten used to it by now. This month has also
brought me a lot of heartache as I continue to get over being broken up with by
the man I thought was the love of my life. I’ve also lost a total of 10 pounds
this month as well as gotten back on my depression medication. On top of all of
that school started back up and that brings its own challenges along with it.
Overall this past month has been a whirlwind and I'm hoping February will be a little
easier. Now let me get to talking about my days like I usually do. Yesterday
was Friday and it was great I didn’t have to worry about homework or tests. It
was relaxing; I ended up cooking dinner for my roommates because I love to
cook. I made pork schnitzel with egg noodles and it was delicious, but I didn’t
get to finish mine because my stomach did not agree with it at all. After
dinner I did the dishes, like I always do and cleaned up around the apartment.
Once all of that was done I watched a few episodes of Supernatural before it
was time for me to go home. My roommate and I are carpooling home every weekend
and this time it was her turn to drive. We made it home in plenty of time and I
was able to watch a little TV with my mom before I went to bed. Overall a
fairly easy day. Today I woke up earlier than I would’ve like but it happens to
me all the time. I got up and went through my usual routine of doing my hair
and makeup before going downstairs and watching more Supernatural before my guy
friend came over. We hung out for a few hours catching up because we haven’t seen
in each other in over a year. We played
Mario Kart and watched the Interview and were complete jerks to each other like
we used to be and it felt just like old times. It was nice to have a little fun
for once; I hope I can start to have fun again. It was hard to hang out with a
guy because the entire time all I could think about was my Ex and how I wished I
was hanging out and watching movies with him instead. Once my friend left I got
really depressed because I couldn’t stop thinking about my ex and how much I miss
him. I watched a few episodes of Supernatural to help me perk back up but it
can only help so much. Every time I think I am getting better and forgetting
about how much I love him, something happens to bring me right back to square
one. It’s awful and I wish he was still here so I could just talk to him, I miss
being able to tell him anything even if it was something stupid he would still
listen to me. I can just picture him rolling his eyes at me for talking to him
about girly things as I often did. Maybe someday a long time from now I will be
able to move on and be happy with someone else.
Thanks for reading xoxo Lashleigh
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