Hello Everyone,
Today was yet another boring day, I feel myself counting down
the days until I can go back to school. I know that normal people aren’t
excited to go back but I am. I need something to distract myself from all the
constant thoughts in my head. I can barely get through a day without crying at
least twice and its awful living this way. I just need something to focus all
of my attention on so I can’t think about him all the time. I would love to
have homework and papers and tests to prepare for because at least I would be
thinking about something else even if it’s only for a few minutes. Everything around
me is a constant reminder of what I have lost. When I look in my room I think
of how we used to share it, when I’m sitting on my couch watching a movie I
think of how he and I used to do the exact same thing about a month ago. I can’t
go or do anything without thinking of him or what we used to do together. I
just need to be surrounded by my friends who can help me take my mind off of
everything. At the same time though when I go back I know I will have to tell
people over and over that he and I aren’t together anymore and that is going to
just keep twisting the knife in more and more. Nothing I do is ever going to
make this any easier. Enough of the sad and depressing stuff, my best friend
came over today and we played two rounds of Mario Kart on my Wii before I threw
the controller to the ground because I was tired of her kicking my butt. She
came in during the last race every time and took first place from me. So after
8 races of losing I had had enough and I wanted to do something that would make
me not feel even worse than I already did. Then we decided to craft because that’s
what we sorority girls do best! I started making a canvas with my monogram on
it because why not, and she made one with a lyric from beauty and the beast on
it. I’m going to end up finishing mine tomorrow because it has several layers
of paint on it to get it the perfect shade of mint green. So I’m sure tomorrow
will be much like it is today!
Thanks for reading xoxo Lashleigh
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